I've been thinking. That maybe I'm too nice. Okay, alot of people say that. But somehow, whenever I try to change myself and start saying 'no' more often, I can't. I could not stop and think of other's people's feelings, except for those I really hate. When I look back, I let many people use me. I feel so lost. Why can't I just stop being so nice to people? Why can't I just say 'no'? I've been screwed up many times. I feel such an ass whenever I say sorry for the slightest things. Everytime I try to not hurt other people's feelings, I end up doing worse...

Yeah, I had a serious talk with Max. Basically they told me I was too nice and I act and look motherly.... I've known that 'I'm too nice' trait for some time, but I never heard anyone say I'm motherly. I don't know if it's a compliment or an insult. But it was nice to get opinions of other people.


You know what? I don't want to change myself. If it makes me stand out form the crowd, then so be it. God has made me this way. And I'm contended with the way I am. I may be nice, but if you cross the line, you better pray very, very hard. Although I do want to be seen as a teenager still rather than a mom.


As a side note, the trip to OU was a BLAST. I just realise that Maxy has a big head. And i need to get a tailor to do my prom dress. Why is it that people don't make clothes for plus size people? It's insulting. I've been practically the whole day trying to find a dress that can actually FIT me. And no, I don't need to be reminded about my weight and size. And Delicious desserts are well, DELICIOUS! Worth my money ;D

Max, why you look so childish and nerdy ah?